Well… it still feels like I’ve been here for only about two weeks! Time is so concrete, but the human mind often warps it into indistinguishable sections.
Have you ever had so much to do that you don’t know what to do? You freak out a little and briefly consider doing none of it, but “it must be done” and so you crack your knuckles and with newfound determination (usually found after doing just about everything but the inevitable) you write a to-do list. Then you get started on the long journey ahead. Sound familiar? Then, at the end of the day, you feel so productive! Look at all the stuff you’ve done! But then, you look at the to-do list, and realize with a weird sort of confused disappointment that you’ve only completed about one task on the list? That’s been my whole week. Sometimes, I’ll complete assignments that I haven’t added to my to-do list and then add them on after completion, because that way I feel a little less lazy. It’s sad, I know. But it feels like I’ve been so productive!
Anyways, I somehow still feel really accomplished; I got a 92 on my Psychology test (albeit with minimal studying), finished my Psychology paper (ahead of time), did my math (but that’s fun, so it doesn’t really count), written letters to people, done online homework… So I made it through the week, and with a good test grade to show for it!
I’ve been taking my ADD medicine more, and I’ve felt happier and more even-keel with social interactions, and also fel tmore positive in general! It’s been so good. I’m scared to not take it now. This morning, I wasn’t going to take it, and I just felt useless, scattered and depressed. It was quite terrible. So I took it, and had a cup of coffee to top it off, and am no able to focus, but not on the things I need to focus on. I hope I don’t gain a tolerance or something, because I’ve been on a high for life recently.
For once, I feel secure in myself and also in my academics (even though I still disagree with the concept of education…).
Well, I suppose that’s all for now!